Today we welcome Sam, who is currently trying for a baby. She talks of how life doesn’t always go to plan and how, as a planner, this is tough to deal with. How do you get your head around it taking a while to fall pregnant?
I never thought I would be writing this. If I ever thought that I would be writing anything five months after making the decision to start a family, I would have expected it to be a piece on how wonderful pregnancy was and how I couldn’t wait for our little arrival. However, I find myself nearing the end of cycle five, about to start cycle six, and I don’t know what to make of it all.
Yes, I know that five cycles is nothing, really. Not when there are ladies who try for years before they finally see those two lines on a pregnancy test, but I just feel cheated somehow. Ten years of being so careful with my contraceptive pill, and twice I have taken the morning after pill following a nasty case of vomiting or a slip up whilst on antibiotics. I wish someone had told me that I needn’t have spent the last decade worrying whenever my period happened to be a day or so late.
We are doing all we can, while trying to stay relaxed about the whole thing. I religiously take my folic acid each day, and my husband decided to join me in this daily ritual last month, adding zinc to the vitamin cocktail too. Thankfully, we haven’t gone down the route of temperature charting or peeing on OPKs yet, as I feel that it would take some of the spark out of it all. We both desperately want this baby, and as each month ticks by I can’t help but worry if I will still be writing similar pieces a year from now.
I am such a planner, and have been my whole life. I like timescales, lists, and everything to be scheduled in. Maybe that’s why I am struggling so much with something that I don’t have any real control over. I caved today and took a test this morning, it was negative. Yes, it was a cheapo one, and maybe it was too early, but sadly, I think not. Today is Thursday; cycle six is due to start on Sunday, assuming that my rough calculations are correct.
If cycle six is on its way then there’s nothing I can do about it. All I can do is cross my fingers and hope that five is my lucky number.
So, Storkers, any words of advice or suggestions for Sam? How long did it take you to fall pregnant?